My Testimony

Yesterday I posted about testimonies,so today I shall post my testimony here.I've pondered for a long time whether I should do this,because posting about this on public domain can get mixed receptions.After reading this some of you readers may start to look down on me,think twice about believing what I've written in this blog.Some of you may be "You got to be kidding me,the guy who wrote so much about God has such a past,tsk,what a rip-off".I don't know what your reaction may be after reading this,but I choose to testify here anyway because I believe God wants to use me,and the internet is the fastest way to get people connected.Whatever your reaction may be,I want you to lok beyond me,and instead focus on God,his love,his grace,his mercy,his reverence.

Two years ago,I was addicted to pornography and masturbation.I've never told this to anyone,not even my leaders or pastors.Pornography was so easily available on the internet,and almost everyday I would sit in front of the moniter and go through some videos.This continued for a few months,and mind you,I was a christian,but a rotten one.Until one service,I remember it was pastor Gerald,in camp,who suddenly called for prayer.Anyone who was caught in the chains of sexual sins,go up to their leaders and confess,and then get prayed for and be freed.I didn't go up,but that moment caught me.I knew there was something wrong with me.I knew I needed help.But I was afraid and ashamed of going up to my leaders,and so that night in my room I fell on my knees and cried out to God.God didn't respond the first night.I continued to fall reverent before God and tried hard to stop my activities everyday,and God didn't respond for a few nights.Until the day I finally got serious with God and completely stopped all my activities did God respond.He said to me,'Adriel,if I break your chains now,would you go and get yourself caught in it again?' My immediate response was,'No'.My life was a mess,and I desperately wanted to get out.God replied,'My son,be free.I've broken your chains.Now go,and live your life as a gift to me.' Today I can testify that I am free.Amazing grace caught hold of him,broke my chains,resored me and brought me to a place of submission.Today I can testify that I remember none of th pictures I saw for that few months.God had,in a way,brainwashed me.I was lost,but now I'm found.I was blind,but now I see.I was headed for destruction,but God wouldn't allow that to happen.His grace caught hold of me and brought me back into his embrace.

Like I said earlier,you the reader can choose to take this in a lot of ways.You can go,'Despicable!He has downgraded women!I'm never coming back to this blog.' Or you can go 'Tsk,whatever.' Or you can choose to look beyond me,my past,and choose to instead to focus on God's grace and mercy.Two years ago,I was a mess.Today I can testify that I have been redeemed by the blood of the Lamb and I am free.

Today I'm speaking to one group of people.You're caught up in sin.You know it's wrong but you cannot stop.You think you have too many wrongs in you that God cannot forgive you.You think you are so ruined that you cannot come close to God,because God will go away from you.You think that your life is so stained with sins that God cannot use you.I tell you,you cannot be more wrong.I was in a gang,tempted into drugs,very nearly went into smoking,got into fights,almost got busted by the police,but when God came,he stripped all of it away and today I can very thankfully and confidently say he's using me for his glory.Friends today God is saying to you today,'Come into my presence,come as you are.' God wants you to draw near to him,and he will draw near to you.God is saying to you,'You are my child,of course I forgive you.' God is saying to you today,'When I took that cross 2000 years ago,you were on mind,and I paid the price for you.' Friends today if you are caught up in sin,God wants to forgive you.But you have to confess and repent.Confession is not telling God what wrong you've done.God doesn't need you to tell him.He already knows.Confession is agreeing with him that you've done wrong and you need forgiveness.Friends today if you are serious with God,you get down on your knees and you confess.But don't just confess.You make a commitment with God to repent.God wants to use you.He can use you and will use you.
1Corinthians1:26-30 'Brothers, think of what you were when you were called.Not many of you were wise by human standards;not many were influential;not many were of noble birth.But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise;God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are,so that no one may boast before him.It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus,who has become for us wisdom from God—that is,our righteousness,holiness and redemption.' God can and will use you,but you need to come clean before God.

Second group of people I'm writing to today is those who know God has done something powerful in their life.If God has done something powerful in your lif and you know it,you testify.Just like the demon-possessed man who was healed by Jesus at Bethesda,God wants you to testify about him.Surely our all powerful God has done something wonderful in your life.Don't keep it to yourself,share it,be a blessing,impact others with your testimony.Your life is God's gift to you.Make it your gift to God.


Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbid to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine