it's not how i want it

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay


would you stay if you knew the real me?would you still care so much if you knew me?me beyond the mask?me on the inside?me as i am?would you still be there if you knew me this way?why do people wear masks?to conceal their true character?to conceal who they really are?why the mask?when i look around,i see confident people.people who knew who they were.people who were probably not themselves.so i tuck it all inside,and cover it all with a plastic sheet,a covering,anything that covers.anything.but it's not how i want it.it's not who i want to be.i'm tired of living two lives.tired of not knowing who the real me is.tired.confused.trapped.but what can i do?what can i do?will these people still be here if they knew the real me?tough on the inside but collapsed beyond recognition on the inside?would they still be here if they knew?why am i so confused?why do i care so much?why???!!!


Take me now way beyond the veil
Where i can see You
Where i can see You

Hold me now in your arms of love
I want to be with You
I want to be with You

God can You hear the cry of my heart?Can You hear me?